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Offerings at the Lotus Feet of Shri Sai Nath
No Desire for Mukti
Ever since you have held my hand in your own
Miseries of life seem to have forsaken me.
And my life has acquired a new meaning,
Hitherto unknown to me.
You have become the be all and end all of my life.
Sai, you are the destination of my life
You are the beginning, as also the end of my life
I am your child.
Oh! what a bliss, you have bestowed on me!
I often find it difficult to live in this world
And yet I do not want to leave it
The desire to experience more and more of your Grace
Still lurks in me.
I know full well
Onto the path of bhakti
Desirelessness is a pre-requisite
But tell me
What shall I gain by attaining Mukti
Where You shall not be there
Where my soul would have merged in the Supreme.
Where I shall cease to exist as I,
And cease to experience Your Grace as before.
7. A Devotee Opens His Heart
Whether you are a saint or Bhagwan, Avtar or ‘Parabrahm’
Whatever you are,
You are unique
And my own.
But if I say something to you
Kindly do not take it amiss.
You do discriminate between your devotees.
On some you have bestowed the power of “Vaksiddhata”
On some capacity to foretell events,
Many you have turned into Gurus and Sadgurus in no time
On others you have bestowed immeasurable wealth and luxuries of life
But on me,your humble devotee
Who has endeavoured to serve you heart and soul.
You have bestowed no such favours
Neither do I have the capacity to see the future,
Nor do I possess wisdom
Nor even wealth.
If nothing else,
You could have given me your pure unadulterated devotion
Even that you have not given me
If I had even pure devotion
I would have had the satisfaction,
That pure Satvik Bhakti flows within my veins
And encompasses my whole being.
Even that I do not possess.
Sai, I know
That by attributing the charge of discrimination against you.
I am committing a sin.
I do accept, however,
I have never asked you for all this
But haven’t you said,
“Everyone asks from me wealth, progeny and luxuries of life,
But nobody asks from me?
A chunk from the great treasure, I hold
And which I want to share with him.”
If having taken your words as a gospel truth
I did not beg from you the objects of pleasure,
Did I commit a sin?
O’ my Baba!
I implore you not to mind my words
I am a petty human being
Who hasn’t risen above the limitations of the physical frame.
I am your child
Ignorant and uncouth,
DO pardon me.
You have given me something unique
Filled my heart with abounding love and compassion
Sai, I need nothing more
I beseech you,
Bestow’on me the unique honour
That when I leave this transitory world,
You shall take me in your own arms
And merge me in your bosom,
So that for all times to come,
I become your own.
Continued…Chapter 5 Part 3
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